Up and over

Officially ended the Year 2 of my uber long 5 years programme in UCSI and life of course has been more than blissful. For 2 whole weeks I've been catching up with friends and of course updating myself on the lastest goss and movies. 

9th May marks the end of my second Professional 1 and of course, me and Syamala head out to celebrate. Half way through studying tho, we thought of something bizzare. We set up a short list of things which we should do after our first 1st Professional which goes like this list.

• Syamala wants to pierce her ears.
• We have to go for 'tani' session. 
• I have to donate blood.
• We are to go get Year 3 books

And of course, all that, we were simply too lazy to do after our first exam. Thus, we concluded that, we didnt do what we said we would, we are punished! This is absurd but its the little bits of humor we have to crack things up during those times. 

On the 9th itself, we head to Mid Valley to watch Safe. Jason Statham is absolutely sizzling. Its just amazing how could someone live without speaking. I know for sure I'd die. Anyway, the action was awesome-the fights and the killings were omg awesome. Although I initially thought the Chinese girl was a boy in the first place.  And I'm not be blamed, there is a guy looking like that. 

Look!!! NO??? But anyway, I didnt get all those racist jokes about Asians looking so alike but now, I certainly do! And I don't mean racist.

Got done with it then we head to Overtime at Viva Home, Cheras with Sue Zian and Sundra. It was just like any other night but the band that night was awesome. A guy in a ponytail with amazing vocals accompanied by two angels. He was funny and really talented. From the once-upon-a-times cantonese hits to the up-to-date English hits, they did it right. 

We played truth or dare like a boss. Calling people middle of the night telling them I'm leaving to Mexico or expecting a child. And Aaron even got his own dose of gayness by confessing to Edmund. Epic!

Ended the day with two strikeout off the to do list.

• Syamala wants to pierce her ears.
• We have to go for 'tani' session. 
• I have to donate blood.
• We are to go get Year 3 books

By 2, I'm all down and comfortably sleeping in bed with nothing but beautiful dreams.

Early to rise make a women healthy,wealthy and nice...and wise!

It doesn't mean you lose

You know what they say about Aries?? The fire sign is at all times really to pump your day. But of course, not as pumped as our because we have all those extra energy without even requiring the dense amount of glycogen. So yeah! What else, head-strong, tough and they always want to win. Anything less than a number one is too bad for them. What they also mentioned is that when you start argueing with an Aries, remember to always say, "I LOSE!!" Owh yeah baby!

But at some point of an Aries's life, they stopped fighting and just follow suit with what the bullshit authority has got to say. And now, this is the part where I stopped fighting against the incompetent, unrelenting staffs of a devilish university. People ask! Why give up? Why? 

I'll tell you why. Because I care. Fighting them hurts everybody. It hurts me and people around me. Trust me. I've been barking at everybody ever since those barbarians got us into faeces alright?! So, this is why I stop fighting. I care much more of the people who mold me and shaped me into who I am today. My parents, my family and most of all countless supportive friends who endlessly tell me that I can! I know that for a fact. They know that I know. But they still endlessly remind me of how awesome I am risking being barked at. I certainly do not want to hurt them any longer. They care! 

And also, for the millions and millions of people out there who needs me to change their life come 2015. They need us! Think about them. Fighting for our rights seems to be the best move there is but is it the most appropriate? Think about it. You've work so hard to get this far and you're giving it all away. 

Listen to me.

Give in-not to the unrelenting forces of the authority, but to yourself. 

to your 2 years of tears and sweat. 

to your parents who cares  about us so much that it hurts them

to millions and millions of the nation who needs you

to your future

to making the world a better place

Trust me as I mouthed these words as I write it down.

 "In only myself whom I trust and whom I shall let decide my future. To the rest who attempts to meddle anymore with me, myself and I. Prepare for trouble and I'm making it double."

We will all make it through. One thing is for sure, we will not be forgetting our struggles in medical school for a very long time. Take it from me.

Have faith

 Keep the hopes 

Love thy people

Keep the strength up

F O R

" What doesn't kills you just makes you stronger "

Post PE stress reliever

Lets just the anticipating for the results gives a tremendous negative effect on students. I, myself can clearly notice the emotional changes that's occurring drastically deep within. The viva shortlist on Friday brings a chaotic emotional distress what more-RESULTS on SATURDAY?

So yeah! Viva shortlist comes out on Friday. I'll probably let the issue of incompetent staffs in the school slide because it happens everywhere. And there's no one else to blame on rather than the Malaysian timing. Owh yes! Living in Malaysia, I always schedule all events an hour early. People will still be several quarters of hours late. Imagine if it is to begin on time! So, it says 11.30 would be the Viva listing. We waited till nearly 1 when our class rep said there would be no Viva & its the best news anyone could get. No viva largely means no one failed. And being someone who passed all the MAs, I highly doubt that I failed terribly. We head on out and enjoyed the rest of the day.

Then come Saturday, the deadly Saturday! Awaiting for the results, we were all called into C-209 at 11.30 am. Dr Thuzar came in accompanied by bubbly Dr Wunna. My stomach starts to churn then comes to a stop. Then sympathetic action starts. Tachycardia and tachypnea begins. Like OMG!! Then came the announcement to call up 9 person for a Viva cum interview.

"What on Earth??? Viva???"

Things running rapidly through my mind.

Omg! There is a Viva. Would I be next?? Would i?? Or I won't even get the chance to prove my worth? What is it for? I hope it isn't Viva.

Then Dr Wunna came in and called another 2.

OMG!! Distinction Viva already??

And we all started to make assumption. 

They reduced the Viva cut off point? Or what happened?

Then the news came out. There was a suspected paper leak.

ZOMG!! Are they all gonna get expelled?? Please no! When will my results be out??

I waited the entire day. From 11.30am I set off and I return home at nearly 10.00pm with no results. NA-DA!! To make matters worst, when I broke the news that they want to hold back our results to my parents, Mr Paranoia says some really assing stuffs.

"Really?? Or that she failed? She just didn't want us to know?"

Like OMG ridiculous! I forwarded a doctors number to my mom saying,"If he don't believe, ask him to call Dr"

Its unbelievable that someone who raised me up would doubt me like that. Unbe-fuckin-livable. Fine then, he's not doubting on me! He's doubting on himself-I hope he realizes that.

Post PE Stress Reliever...............NOT!

Imma holler back at cha'

Yesh.. I'm back. And of course after a whole month without essaying, this will be a challenge. But as far as I can crap on my exam papers about things that I do not experience, its certain that this would be much easier.Though, it'll take me some time. 

This was actually started on the 4th day after I'm all done with the papers. And I've just ending it now. This is why its important not to put off something. I'll never do it back. Now that I'm about to talk about how my first week after the examinations went, I have to catch back on before the exams.

Lesson of the day: Do not put till tomorrow what you can do today!

The preparatory phase for the exams is difficult but I'm very much anticipating for it. Every second passed just made me feel better and better about myself and more confident on the examination.
So, the entire 3 week had been nothing but hardcore-and I mean real hardcore study. Basically, my schedule would be tightly coiled in  a manner that it only involves my studies, studies and twice a week taekwon-do training. & man, it was tough! Real tough. But every second went by, my energy got drained quicker and quicker and in exchange, I got confidence. Confidence is priceless! 

And I'm more than certain that it'll be easy peasy.

The day came. Strutting with my head held high into the exam hall. Settled my bag and approaching my assigned seat with writing utensils, well warmed up brain and of course, sheer confidence. Took my seat. R7, I remembered. Seated in between Syamala and Brigitte. Then the envelope came, containing not only our question papers, but our future lies inside of that brown envelope. Time starts! I begin writing, throwing out all-and yes! I mean all that I know into that small A4 sized paper. 

Times up! 

*breathe jasmaine breathe!*

Relieved!

Seconds by seconds ticked

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Hours by hours flew by

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Paper by paper done

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Days by day went by

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On the 12th of April, I officially ended my professional exams. *I wish*

The same night, darling juniors organized our farewell to bid us good luck as we are about to step into Year 3. Clinical years! Kuala Terengganu!! 50% done!!
Yippeesss.....

Tutti fruiti and sushi king bonanza

Cousies came to wish jie jie Happy 21 Birthday

The study stress-eyebags!

Farewell 2012

Owh.. & I'm a proud owner of a brand new smartphone.

Inactive but very much active

I guess its time. In 27 days time Professional Exam I will begin & as far as I am, I haven't been studying properly. Somehow, this time around seems less anxious in comparison to the last. I don't know what to expect but something tells me I'll make it through. 

*keeping my fingers cross"

So, yeah! For 27 days. I'll be keeping my Facebook inactive and off course this blog will be inactive. Rest assure, I WILL BE BACK!! Just give me 31 days tops and I'll be back with more stories to share of my struggles and journey. & that's not all, I have a great feeling that this time around, my holidays will be awesome. In fact, saying its awesome-will be an understatement. Wish me luck and I'll be back, a step closer to my dreams. 

 Anyway, my shortlisted for the meeting with mQa. Let's just say it went well and I shall not elaborate more on it. Spoke a lot-as always and learnt a lot. 

What to expect after my exams??

Which I hope I'll manage to attend

My small vacation to Medan & of course, Lake Toba and Brastagi

Then of course, my annual must-go-Relay For Life

Till my next update on the 17th of April, just so you miss my darling face.

I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up

And when you're needing your spaceTo do some navigatingI'll be here patiently waitingTo see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burnSome even fall to the earthWe've got a lot to learnGod knows we're worth itNo, i won't give up

With lots of love, hugs & kisses,

jassie